Friday, February 25, 2011

days off

So unfortunately I've had a ton of time off lately. Business has been so slow that I have had 3 and 4 day weekends every week for the past month. If this seems like a good thing then you must live with your parents or have no bills to pay. Trust me, this sucks. And this new found weekly vacation has taken a serious tole on my self esteem, mood and psyche, although they all mean pretty much the same thing. Regardless, my lack of work and diminishing bank account has really taken a tole on me.

Do you ever get in that mood where you want to do something because you don't want to sit around and watch tv but you also don't feel like doing anything at the same time. That's the mood I have been in for a couple weeks now. Usually diapers can at least temporarily solve this problem but I have been too depressed to even tape one on. I really don't want this blog to be me ranting about being depressed all the time but this is all I have been able to think of lately.

I am working on an official post right now, another story from my past, that I will post as soon as I finish. I just wanted to post this quickly to tell all of you that I have not abandoned you all, like so many other ABDL blogs and websites have in the past. On a related note, I have been in contact with a local DL friend of mine who created a logo for me. As soon as I get a final draft I will implement it and of course give all due credit to its creator. Until then, hang in there guys, I'll be back.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

employee of the year

So I'm writing to you guys today to get something off my chest. I have been working at my current job for just under 4 years, and in those 4 years my job has expanded far beyond what I was hired for. I really don't mind the extra work, it has made my job a lot more interesting, but this extra work comes with little to no recognition. I understand that I shouldn't expect and recognition for what I do, but for some reason beyond my comprehension I care about what others think of me. I really strive for acceptance and acknowledgment.

What set me off today was losing the employee of the year award. I have spent the past 4 years working my ass off to prove myself to my boss and fellow employees. I feel like I have gotten no recognition for my efforts. I may have won employee of the month 3 times in the past 4 years (you can only win once a year) but it's just a popularity contest. I can prove this since not only have I lost to complete incompetent fools, but in my busiest, most successful, and in the year I took on the most extra responsibility, I did not win employee of the month once. Our GM, who announces the winner, even talked about how much work I've taken on and how great I have been but said in front of everyone that it just wasn't my month.

I really thought this year was my year however. There has been some tough competition the past 3 times I was eligible for employee of the year. I understand why I lost the first time, I had only been there for about 7 months, but I thought I had it this year. They ended up giving it to a friend of mine who had already won a couple years ago. I actually had a talk with the GM just 2 months ago about how I don't feel appreciated around the office. I feel like I am being taken advantage of and I mentioned the girl who won this year. They dumped some of her busy work on me and I definitely didn't appreciate it.

I'm sorry to vent here but I am not really in a great mood right now and I really needed to get everything off my chest. I say this every time I lose employee of the month or employee of the year, but I've had enough. It's hard to care about your job when you get no recognition and you lose employee of the month to a total moron who works in the dining room, or an idiot who you find yapping away on his cell phone in the bathroom almost every day. After going above and beyond the call of duty as much as possible for the past 4 years and getting no acknowledgment, why should I?