feeling better

Fortunately I have been feeling better lately. I'm still a bit on the depressed/stressed out stage but I'm back to wearing diapers so that's a plus :) For some reason I lose all interest in wearing diapers when I'm depressed, I mean really depressed. You would figure that since wearing gives me a sense of comfort and security that I would crave it in a situation like that but no. When I'm in that everything sucks state of mind all I want to do is be an adult. I don't want to think of myself as a baby and I almost get disgusted with my fetish desires.

I did diapered myself over the past two nights and I forgot how much I loved it! I forgot the feeling of the bulky padding between my legs and the soft inner core against my skin. I forgot how much I love it when my wife grabs my diaper or pats/playfully spanks my bottom. My only thing now is, do I want to wear again tonight? Do I want to make it 3 nights in a row? Will it be to much...I don't know. My wife tells me she is cool with it and her actions back up her words, the problem is me. Am I ok with it yet?

UPDATE:
My wife came home about an hour early that night which happened to be before I diapered up. So needless to say, I didn't get to wear that night, but I did wear yesterday for a few hours before she came home so that made up for it.

days off

So unfortunately I've had a ton of time off lately. Business has been so slow that I have had 3 and 4 day weekends every week for the past month. If this seems like a good thing then you must live with your parents or have no bills to pay. Trust me, this sucks. And this new found weekly vacation has taken a serious tole on my self esteem, mood and psyche, although they all mean pretty much the same thing. Regardless, my lack of work and diminishing bank account has really taken a tole on me.

Do you ever get in that mood where you want to do something because you don't want to sit around and watch tv but you also don't feel like doing anything at the same time. That's the mood I have been in for a couple weeks now. Usually diapers can at least temporarily solve this problem but I have been too depressed to even tape one on. I really don't want this blog to be me ranting about being depressed all the time but this is all I have been able to think of lately.

I am working on an official post right now, another story from my past, that I will post as soon as I finish. I just wanted to post this quickly to tell all of you that I have not abandoned you all, like so many other ABDL blogs and websites have in the past. On a related note, I have been in contact with a local DL friend of mine who created a logo for me. As soon as I get a final draft I will implement it and of course give all due credit to its creator. Until then, hang in there guys, I'll be back.