Wednesday, October 31, 2012
I was offered a new position at my job a few weeks ago. I am super excited for this job because it gets me back into an office job and working a much more stable schedule. It also is my first professional job in the media field and my first management position. I went to school for TV studio production so to finally have a job where I will be shooting and editing videos is amazing! I basically get paid a regular salary to be creative!
The biggest thing about my new position is the hours. The job I was hired for a couple months ago was a night position, which meant long nights and almost no time to see my wife. I basically woke up around noon, got to work about 2 PM and stayed there until everything was done. I had many 10, 12 and some 14 hour nights that were physically and emotionally draining to say the least. I basically had no time to spend with my wife and almost no time to myself. But hopefully that will all be over since I'm back into a 9-5 type of job.
Next October event: We just got back from a weekend trip up Universal Studios Hollywood! My wife and I met working at Universal Studios so it's always going to be a special place for us. This year we went to Halloween Horror Nights which, if you aren't aware, is when they setup various haunted mazes around the park for you to walk through. They also setup scare zones around the park so as you're walking through smoke filled sections of the park creatures jump out and try and scare you, or they could creepily follow you around... Anyway, the whole night is all about getting scared and marveling at the movie quality sets and makeup. They do it every weekend in October so I highly recommend making the trip next year if you're a big Halloween buff.
Some more stuff happened to me this month that I'm not prepared to talk about yet but soon enough.
Oh yeah, Happy Halloween!
Monday, October 1, 2012
This September has flown by! I remember when I was growing up my parents would always say the years go by faster as you get older and I 100% agree with that.
So my job is going well for the most part. I'm learning a lot and have been the closing supervisor a few times which is pretty cool. Of course the closing part isn't so cool. The ad I applied for online mentioned nothing about this being a pm shift. Working nights is definitely putting a strain on my marriage and I don't know how much longer I can do this. It's only been a month and as much as I enjoy the people and the work, for the most part, I don't know long I can keep this up.
The main thing that keeps going through my head is that my wife will eventually be deployed and I never see her already. She works mornings and I work nights, so we only see each other on the weekends if I'm not working. It's a rough thing to go through and I don't really want to do it anymore. I would rather be unemployed for a while if it means seeing her again. Of course I have only been there for a month so I would also feel terrible for leaving so soon. Decisions decisions...
If anyone has any advice I am all ears. I really wish I could do some kind of work from home. Maybe I could be the next internet star or...something.
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
What have I been up to?I have a new job finally! About a week after I got here I applied to a job that was very similar to what I had back home so I figured I was a shoe in and would be working in no time. Well, after a couple interview over the following 6 weeks I was hired. They they told me that I would have to wait 2 more weeks because the department manager was just starting his vacation. So anyway, now that I am almost through my second week of work things are getting back to normal.
We have made a few good friends among the military people. Almost every weekend we have people over which is something that I always wanted. Due to various circumstances (moving around the country and the like) I didn't have too many friends around where I grew up so there was no parting with people on the weekends. So finally having a group of friends is pretty sweet.
My diaper wearing has been rather sporadic. As of right now I haven't worn in a couple weeks because of time constraints or I just haven't felt like it. After sitting around for 2 months my first 2 weeks of work have left me exhausted every night so I lack the desire to do much of anything. But I do have a building desire to wear and I should be making time for it very soon.
My new SoCal life has also affected my social presence. I have been neglecting my twitter and I honestly feel bad about it. Over the past 4 years I have made some great friendships through twitter and I feel like I've left them out to dry. I have been working on staying in touch with people but it's a work in progress.
So here's to my new life in sunny California and, here's to getting back in the wing of things with my old online self!
Friday, August 3, 2012
So I must be going to attend to my Skyrim character. He needs me! I'll leave you with this and talk to you all again real soon!
Thoughts along the drive:
Oh right I almost forgot... I almost DIED in...some...state...on a bridge! Basically I was driving in the middle lane in the middle of a bridge when I decided to pass the car in front of me so I started merging into the left lane. Just as my front left tire crosses the lane divider I heard a metal clanging noise and looked ahead to see a big piece of metal come flying out from the bottom of the car I was trying to pass. The metal object was about a foot of so long and a few inches wide and was spinning rapidly as it flung at my car.
I managed to swerve into the left lane and as I looked to my right I saw the metal object fly past my car in the middle of the lane at about eye level. I'm sure it would have easily pierced my windshield and hit me or my sister, not to mention the fact that I'm in the middle of a bridge and who knows what would have happened afterward. I then looked back to see the object thankfully fly under the car that was behind me, unfortunately I saw his right rear tire explode followed by a tire on the car behind him. I don't know exactly what happened but I wish everyone involved all the best.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
And then you get all paranoid because you think she’s stalking a spider, and you look at where she’s looking and there’s nothing there. Absolutely nothing.
Now who looks like the idiot?
Another quirk she has is a habit of talking to walls. There she’ll be sitting on the floor staring up at the wall or ceiling, (kinda hard to tell at certain angles) and will continue to intermittently talk to it. She does this right before she takes a leaping jump off of it. The closest thing I can guess is that she’s asking permission to jump off an inanimate object. But she’s stupid, she doesn’t know any better.
Honestly, as far as I can tell it’s all part of cat’s master plan to take over the world. Either that or she can see ghosts. One or the other, take your pick.
Stay tuned for more Stupid One’s Antics…
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Stay tuned for updates. I may or may not cross post or link here in the future. I'm leaning toward keeping them separate as that might get annoying. Enjoy!
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Monday, April 23, 2012
As the days and weeks and months drag on I fall deeper and deeper into an emotional pit. I am getting more and more depressed and lonely, but at least I have diapers to keep me company right? I have been wearing a lot more lately which has helped a bit but that leads me to an interesting topic that I never expected to write about. This is a fitting first post in 3 months because it's something I've never seen written about in any blog before. Forgive me if you've written about it, I haven't read every piece of ABDL writing out there, and please link it so I can.
Before my wife left for boot camp we were doing really well, besides the onset of depression from facing a daunting 8 months apart. That's not to say we're doing worse now, just the opposite I believe. This separation has made my love for her grow even stronger. I know she is perfect for me because all I can think about is when I get to talk to her again. All I can think about is how much I want to be with her and share life's great adventures with her again.
I feel like over the past 6 months we haven't grown as a couple; it's almost as if our relationship has been put on hold. Before she left we were really in a good place with our relationship and my fetish. I was getting her to wear more frequently and she was wanting me to as well. Everything from our relationship to our sex life was getting better. Now it feels like it's all been frozen or even set back after these past 6 months.
She may disagree with my next thought but she can tell me later, if she has time to call me. I feel like with the diapers specifically, because this is a diaper blog after all, I have to not quite start over, but I have to...sort of...start over. Hypothetically, if I was moving in with her tomorrow, I would feel rather uncomfortable lounging around in just a diaper, even though it was perfectly acceptable and I was perfectly fine with it before she left. I can see it already, she is going to tell me she is perfectly fine with everything and it all boils down to me not being comfortable with anyone else knowing, which is basically true. I just wish I knew why I wasn't comfortable with it, but I have a feeling I never will. I really feel like I have to test the waters and see what I can and cannot do. It's strange to think like that since we have been together for 6 and a half years, but it's true.
Sometimes I think about where our relationship could be if she hadn't been away for 6 months. I was able to see her for a week at Christmas and she let me tape up a Bambino on her, which was pretty hot! It was also the first time I ever taped a diaper on someone. After taping my own diapers on since I was 6, I still didn't really know what I was doing. It's a whole different ballgame when it's on someone else. But who knows, maybe that could have been a regular occurrence by now if she never left. And let's not forget about her. Maybe in these past 6 months we would have found something new she enjoys and I could indulge her. Reminiscing on the past and imagining the future, or alternate future, is somewhat of a specialty of mine, for better or for worse.
After being away for so long I have to leave you with some good news right? If all the pieces fall right, by July I should be moving out of the cold North East and into the sunny beaches of San Diego! My wife and I put a deposit down on a townhouse just outside downtown and I could be there living with her again as early as mid June! It's so exciting! I'm stressing a bit over just how much I have to do before then, but it's all worth it to live with her again!
So I may have been a bit too depressed to continue my blog over the past few months but I will try extra hard to work on it now. Until next time!
Monday, January 23, 2012
Being alone every night has given me the opportunity to examine who I am and come to some conclusions about myself and where I fit into the world. One thing I want to do is take a step away from the labels society bestows upon us. My main screen name for the time being is ClosetDL which of course says "Look at me I'm a DL!" but this needs to change. As I grew up I was desperately looking for a name, a name for what I was and for what the feelings I had were. I was so happy to discover the words teen baby, diaper lover, and adult baby and I finally felt like I belonged to something.
As I grew up I expanded my understanding of each term and applied one that closely resembled myself. The term diaper lover stuck and still is what I go by today, but it's not 100% me. I'm not saying I'll just up and stop calling myself a DL, but I would like to clarify my DLness.
Sure I like diapers, but I don't love them. Love is a very serious word for me. My wife still pokes fun at me for how long it took me to tell her I loved her. I love my wife and I love my parents and sister, but I definitely don't share the same love for diapers. They are a lot of things to me including both a method of relaxation and sexual stimulant. They both turn me on and make me feel at ease after a long day.
I also like to watch cartoons. I love how they brought back the 90's Nickelodeon cartoons and I DVR quite a few of them, especially Rugrats. I also enjoyed the 2006 Curious George movie and subsequent cartoon, and of course the Pixar movies are amazing!
That being said, I don't have a little side. I don't want to sit around sucking a bottle or a pacifier, not that that alone defines a little. Being talked down to as if I was a baby/child is also not appealing to me at all. I have no problem with people who enjoy that of course. Everyone has their own thing and I'll be the last one to call people out for being a little different than me.
When it comes to describing who I am to people I tend to say I'm a DL with a slight AB side. I only include a slight AB side in that description because it explains to me why I enjoy watching cartoons and, it's debatable whether or not Pixar movies are kids movies, but I can't get enough of them either!
What this all comes down to is people's perception of what a DL or an AB should be. If I say I have an AB side you would immediately jump to the conclusion about what I like/don't like and you may be wrong. Since my definition of an AB or DL is different than yours How can I confidently say I'm either?