chill music

When I was in college I was under a lot of stress.  I wasn’t doing well at all in my first 2 years and I was also hiding my secret diaper fetish from my now ex girlfriend.  It was a rough time for me.  Back then I was HUGE into music.  There was rarely a time I can remember that I wasn’t listening to the radio, a CD, or a tape, way before I got my first mp3 player.  Back then music was therapeutic to me.  I was and still am a big Dave Matthews fan so whenever I needed a stress relief I popped in one of his CDs and chilled out.

Lately I have been wicked stressed out.  I have been dieting, and by dieting I mean eating less food, which has kept me a bit on edge with my wife and coworkers, due to what I assume is hypoglycemia because most of my family has it.  I also haven’t been feeling well due to a chronic disease I was diagnosed with about 2 years ago which required a permanent and drastic change in diet.  Unfortunately, after college, I went away from music in general.  It’s not that I don’t want to sit down and relax to a couple songs, it’s that I just can’t seem to find the time.  I have been sucked into TV shows that I HAVE to watch or they are automatically  deleted from my DVR.  And I can’t just watch them online, I know me, if I was to rely on that I wouldn’t watch anything.

What I’m getting at here is that I’ve been so overly stressed out lately and I’ve been worrying about my wife leaving for 8 weeks which leaves me alone on Christmas.  I need to get back into my chill out methods I found in high school and college.  I need to go home and pop in a Dave Matthews CD, lie back on the couch and chill.  But I can’t, because I have to watch a few more shows before they get deleted.