a quick rant followed by new bambinos

Well I'm still trying to get aclosetlife.com back. I feel bad that it's been gone this long and I feel like I've lot a ton of readers because all the sites I'm registered with have my now unusable .com address. I know when I was searching for blogs to read, when I clicked on a link and it was invalid, I moved on. And I can't seem to find any help online. I'm not even registered with the site that holds my URL, and I'm not registered with the google admin panel, which I apparently had to be to get the URL in the first place. I can't access the admin help page without logging in, which is my problem in the first place, and I can't find anything close to my issue on the google help pages...

Sorry for the rant. I'm not the happiest person about this issue.


In other news

My new Bambinos arrived yesterday! Just in time too, I only have 3 of my last case left. I should be able to try them out this weekend and let you all know how the newly redesigned core is in comparison to the previous one. Their website says the new design "increases the dispersion of urine while maximizing the function of the diaper greatly enhances its comfort." I'm also looking forward to the increased resistance of the core from tearing or bunching, both of which happen to me every time I wear them. Of course that would be because I don't often wet them. In fact I usually don't since my wife isn't too keen on the idea.

That brings me to a very interesting development on the subject of wetting my diapers in front of my wife. But, I'll leave that for a future update... DUN DUN DUN

strangest dream

I had the strangest dream last night. It involved: hanging out with Lindsey Lohan like we were best friends and she wasn't crazy or a drug adict, grocery shopping, some labyrinth of a seedy motel where my groceries were slowly being stolen by care bears in diapers, 2 really dumb security guards who were just getting in the way of me recovering my stolen groceries, pushing my slowly emptying carriage of groceries (due to the baby care bears) around the inside and outside of said seedy motel, the security guards finally learning a heartfelt and meaningful lesson, and me trying to push my nearly empty grocery carriage to the airport to go to Hawaii.

I don't even know where to begin with this one. I'm also still not clear on where it even takes place. I think it was on Hawaii but, at the end, I think I was trying to get to Hawaii. There was also a tearful ending with the security guards learning some type of lesson and me missing my honeymoon in Hawaii.

I was even best friends with Lindsey Lohan... WTF?

I was also getting diapered at one point, until my brain went "wait, you're not diapered in real life" then I looked down and the diaper disappeared.

I swear I wasn't on anything when I went to bed.

time

So today marks day one of my biggest project of the year. I've spend months preparing for this and it's finally time to start...

Generating peak files...

We'll since it'll be doing that forever...

How have things been blogger world?

I've been quite busy lately and, have hit a couple milestones recently. I had a two-fer this month as I became the father of a one year old and, I turned 30 at the same time! Go me!

You know, I don't feel any older. Of course I've been saying that for every birthday since I was little, but I really thought I would feel differently this time. This seems like more of a milestone than previous ones I've experienced. I'm no longer a 20 something DL, as it says on a good portion of my ABDL website profiles.

That's funny about the passage of time; time never stops. Time will continue to pass no matter what happens. You will continue to get older and, there's nothing you can do about it.

That sounded more ominous than I wanted it to. This isn't something to be feared. It's something to be embraced. You won't get out of this life alive so, make the most of your time.

the week in review

Well that was one fun week...

Ever since I got back from vacation, it's been balls to the walls! I haven't had time to think much, let alone finish my work. For example, I spent the past couple days running around the city taking pictures of one event for future sales use, then running over to a hotel to shoot a sales related video. This video was to win over a client who was potentially taking their business else wear.

Now, don't get me wrong, this video was a good idea and I wish them all the best, but seriously, it was a cluster and a half. I walked over there with all my gear and no plan, which was strike one. When I arrive I'm handed a piece of paper with a time frame and locations for the film shoot. Now reading this paper confuses me because it gives me about 5 minutes at each location, which was strike 2. Now any filmmakers out there will be able to tell you that it takes more than 5 minutes to set up, test and rehearse something that you know nothing about ahead of time.

Man I with my keyboard had light up keys...

So yeah, that was a fun time.

In all seriousness, I did enjoy myself. I got to work with a former coworker that I hadn't seen in a couple months, although he still hasn't returned my gear... It was good to be away from my desk and doing location shoots. I have spent way too much time in the hotel lately.

We have a new employee from Vegas though, who is a fellow photographer. It's nice to have someone to talk to about all of this crazyness for once.

Side note: My first tweet ever was "checking out this crazyness..." was my first ever tweet from more than 4 and a half years ago. 

So my new coworker is helping me organize and shoot some food amenities next week which should be cool. It's especially helpful because I know nothing about shooting food except that I don't want to do it. I've heard from a few people that it's a pain in the ass, so I'm so glad he is here to help me.

This was one of those weeks where it was one step forward and 3 steps back. I feel bad that I didn't get to a couple projects, but there just wasn't enough time in the week. I had to say no to one of the sales guys 3 times on a project because I just didn't have time. I'll have to dedicate time to him on Monday, if I can spare it...

So how are you all doing as February 2014 rears it's head? Let me know below and I'll post responses as I get them.

the greatest joy

My mother has told me this a few times now, and it definitely rings true. She's been asked many times in her life if she would ever go back to a time before she had kids. A time when life was simpler and you had the freedom to do whatever you wanted to without worrying about who will take care of your baby or how or what your child is doing. Her response is a resounding "That's a stupid question." I now know exactly what she's talking about.

My daughter was born back in June and she may only be 8 weeks old, but I can't imagine her not being here, nor do I want to. The past 8 weeks have been such an amazing journey of discovery and patience...lots of patience... I've wanted to get started on this journey for as long as I can remember, and I can finally say, I have not been disappointed. The transformation over the past 2 months has been truly amazing to watch, especially over the past couple weeks. 

Recently, she started to really interact with us. She always kind of did, but she had a glazed over kind of look, since she could only see a couple feet at best. I could write a book on the stuff I've learned about babies that I never new before; for instance, their eyes aren't fully developed when they're born so they can only see basically the distance from the boobs to the eyes of their mother. Babies have hair all over their bodies when they're in the womb, then they swallow it shortly before birth, and those messy diapers are really weird looking... 

Now when my coworkers ask me what I did over the weekend, or the night before, I usually have the same answer. "Watched the baby."

I could watch her all day. It's amazing to watch her squirm around and pause briefly as a flicker of light catches her eye. And let me tell you, if there's a bit of light in her field of view, she's gonna find it, and she's gonna stare at it for a LONG time. It's so cute when she does too. It's so cute when she makes little faces that scream "What the hell was that!" or "There's something wrong with you."

It's only been 8 weeks, but it's been an amazing 8 weeks that I wouldn't trade for the world.

april update

Life has really gotten away from me. I've been busy getting ready for the new arrival and work has picked up a bit as well. I attended an infant CPR class last week that was definitely an interesting experience. I never took CPR before so learning it in the first place was pretty cool, but spending 2 hours talking about and giving CPR to infant and child dummies was...strange. It's an invaluable skill though, that I'm so glad I know, but hope I never have to use.

As for work, my boss got me a lynda membership which has been unbelievably beneficial. Lynda is a website with tens of thousands of professional videos teaching you just about everything about just about every piece of technology.  They cover still and video shooting and editing, content creation with after effects, photoshop, etc. along with computer programming and countless other topics.

I was joking on twitter the other day that using this website feels like being in the Matrix, minus the neck holes. I have a big  project that's due in June where I have to design the CD cover, sleeve and disc art for this big annual meeting. I have less than a year of experience with photoshop and after effects, but my boss said that Illustrator would be the best program for this project. (Being a film guy I have no idea about this stuff) So I searched lynda for something on Illustrator and it responds big time!

"You need to know Illustrator? Well here's an 8 hour course teaching you everything you need to make just about anything. All you need to do is supply the creativity!"

"Ok!" I said in an excited tone.

I really want to get back into story writing...

I keep telling myself that I want to be a writer. I want to create an entire world and make everyone come to life. I probably need a good idea first though huh...

an amazing adventure

It still amazes and slightly scares me that I will soon be a father.

Sometimes I wish I could write one sentence blog posts sometimes because my mind is so amazed by what the future holds, that I have no idea what to say.

I've always wanted a family. That probably stems from growing up in a wonderful and loving home with two parents who barely ever fought, and who are still married almost 30 years later. This of course does fly in the face of what a lot of people claim to be the cause of my affinity for diapers. I have always done things my own way though, so I'm not surprised, not to mention how it's all speculation anyway.

So at this stage in the game, we have a crib/changing table and dresser built and in place in the baby's room. Seeing all of that was a big thing for me. Obviously I knew my wife was pregnant and she was showing a bit at that point, but to see the furniture in the room was awesome. There was finally a material connection between us and our baby. Now we have a stroller and clothes and other odds and ends scattered throughout the house that I can't wait to use! I can't wait to meet our baby and take her out on walks and show her the world.

We're over half way to the start of an amazing adventure that I can't wait to begin!